Darkest Before Dawn
It feels like the world feels has become a never ending sea of Pinterest positivity boards, self-help mantras, and the power of love. It implies that sadness is a weakness or a failure. Unfair, demanding bullshit, if you ask me.
Recently, a very strange period of my life finally caught up with me. I lost family, a friend, and had a health scare. I found myself struggling to be happy when I really didn’t want to be and confused when I couldn’t be. I tried to rush past everything that I was feeling, and it filled me with anxiety, anger, and sadness.
I was so frustrated when it all started, but I’ve come to realize that it has been a gift. It made me want to write, paint, go on long walks, read good books, play my guitar, and listen to amazing music. It helped to push me to work on a short story collection that I’ve been wanting to do for ages, and I’ve really been focused on building my photography portfolio.
I’ve always enjoyed a random blue day. Sometimes, I crave the catharsis of a good cry, searching out great emotional movies and books or by making playlists of sad songs. This time, it was the soft comfort of listening to the right song at a perfect moment. There is something about each of these songs that strikes me. They helped me to see what I had been avoiding; they helped me wash away the grit of a true emotional life.
- Young the Giant – Cough Syrup
- The Killers – For Reasons Unknown
- Evan Dando – All My Life
- Violent Femmes – Good Feeling
- The New Basement Tapes – Kansas City
- Ray LaMontagne – Empty
- Arcade Fire – Crown of Love
- Florence + the Machine – Shake It Out